Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Update
Haven't updated in a while (shame on me). Last Friday (17th) i finally saw a medical doctor who has experience with transgendered people. It was so comforting to finally find someone who has experience with my condition. Funny part is that he thought i was taking too much estrogen and now he told me we needed to double the amount per week. So instead of 10mg i'm taking 20mg per week. Insurance covered everything necessary except the estrogen, which 10 weeks worth came out to be $250 because they didn't have the generic version, ouch. My credit card bill is going to be rediculous this month *sighs*.
Most of my facial hair has fallen out! YAY!! I have a few ugly patches that need to be zapped that were missed. I hope when I go to Hawaii, they will all be gone, until the other hairs grow in.
I have a few more things i need to say, but i'll update later.
Most of my facial hair has fallen out! YAY!! I have a few ugly patches that need to be zapped that were missed. I hope when I go to Hawaii, they will all be gone, until the other hairs grow in.
I have a few more things i need to say, but i'll update later.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Family
I don't know what to think about them right now. I guess I have to live my life and they have to live theirs. I know I am doing the right thing, but each member is having difficulties accepting it.
The interesting thing, is that I am very good at evaluating people, or at least understanding their strengths and weaknesses. I am not good at understanding their values so it has been interesting at the different reactions from people I have told.
I hope with all my being that my close family is not ashamed of me. This path is not a want nor a desire. This is me.
The interesting thing, is that I am very good at evaluating people, or at least understanding their strengths and weaknesses. I am not good at understanding their values so it has been interesting at the different reactions from people I have told.
I hope with all my being that my close family is not ashamed of me. This path is not a want nor a desire. This is me.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Desperation
I have fallen into desperation mode to get what i need in my life. I have done all i can through my insurance and it has gotten me more and more roadblocks. The only positive part is that i can use all of these doctors as references for the insurance company.
Since i was desperate, I will be going outside my insurance and i will be paying a doctor in chicago to get the meds i need. I do not know what he is like, but his name was given to me "through the grapevine."
I hope this does not haunt me in the future.
Since i was desperate, I will be going outside my insurance and i will be paying a doctor in chicago to get the meds i need. I do not know what he is like, but his name was given to me "through the grapevine."
I hope this does not haunt me in the future.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Laser Hair Removal
I'm going to start labelling my blogs based upon things i want to discuss since it is silly do post days as the title.
So today I just got back from my first laser hair removal appointment. OMG, does it hurt, but at least its done and over for the first treatment. My face is all red and puffy, but in a couple hours it shouldn't sting anymore. I have to go back Tuesday to get the spots that were missed. She even thinks i may need only 2 to 3 treatments... wouldn't that be nice! That would only be $1.2K total for laser plus whatever pesky hairs remain to be electrolisized.
I am going to have lunch soon with an old neighbor. She wants to talk about me so we will see how it goes!
So today I just got back from my first laser hair removal appointment. OMG, does it hurt, but at least its done and over for the first treatment. My face is all red and puffy, but in a couple hours it shouldn't sting anymore. I have to go back Tuesday to get the spots that were missed. She even thinks i may need only 2 to 3 treatments... wouldn't that be nice! That would only be $1.2K total for laser plus whatever pesky hairs remain to be electrolisized.
I am going to have lunch soon with an old neighbor. She wants to talk about me so we will see how it goes!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Tuesday
Well, hmm. My fucking grill was stolen today. pisses me off because i had to get dinner instead of making food i already had here. If only the person knew who they were stealing from... don't mess with us girls!
Lots of thoughts are going on in my head lately. My parents bought the same book i did, and i just finished writing to them about what places talk about my own experiences. It will be interesting to see what thety will write back. I just hope they understand a bit more, what i was thinking as i grew up. I just hope that the way i did it, was the best way i could have told them. You try to not play the "what if" game, but nonetheless it is still there in the back of your mind. You can only do the best you can, and focus on the choices you already made.
I have noticed that my outlook on life is slowly switching. I feel like i am starting to become more positive on things. Is that because I am accepting who i am and slowly becoming me? Is it because my parents are learning more about me? Does my new diet help me focus better?
My body is starting to change as well. the fat on my forearms is starting to build up. My veins do not stick out as much. my breasts are also starting to grow. no bra is necessary yet but another 1/2" i'll need to do something so no one at work will tell. I don't care if anyone notices on weekends or when i'm not at work. Strange isn't it? All my life i was focused on just fitting into the surroundings around me that now i don't care if people notice the real me coming out.
Lots of thoughts are going on in my head lately. My parents bought the same book i did, and i just finished writing to them about what places talk about my own experiences. It will be interesting to see what thety will write back. I just hope they understand a bit more, what i was thinking as i grew up. I just hope that the way i did it, was the best way i could have told them. You try to not play the "what if" game, but nonetheless it is still there in the back of your mind. You can only do the best you can, and focus on the choices you already made.
I have noticed that my outlook on life is slowly switching. I feel like i am starting to become more positive on things. Is that because I am accepting who i am and slowly becoming me? Is it because my parents are learning more about me? Does my new diet help me focus better?
My body is starting to change as well. the fat on my forearms is starting to build up. My veins do not stick out as much. my breasts are also starting to grow. no bra is necessary yet but another 1/2" i'll need to do something so no one at work will tell. I don't care if anyone notices on weekends or when i'm not at work. Strange isn't it? All my life i was focused on just fitting into the surroundings around me that now i don't care if people notice the real me coming out.
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