Tuesday

Well, hmm. My fucking grill was stolen today. pisses me off because i had to get dinner instead of making food i already had here. If only the person knew who they were stealing from... don't mess with us girls!

Lots of thoughts are going on in my head lately. My parents bought the same book i did, and i just finished writing to them about what places talk about my own experiences. It will be interesting to see what thety will write back. I just hope they understand a bit more, what i was thinking as i grew up. I just hope that the way i did it, was the best way i could have told them. You try to not play the "what if" game, but nonetheless it is still there in the back of your mind. You can only do the best you can, and focus on the choices you already made.

I have noticed that my outlook on life is slowly switching. I feel like i am starting to become more positive on things. Is that because I am accepting who i am and slowly becoming me? Is it because my parents are learning more about me? Does my new diet help me focus better?

My body is starting to change as well. the fat on my forearms is starting to build up. My veins do not stick out as much. my breasts are also starting to grow. no bra is necessary yet but another 1/2" i'll need to do something so no one at work will tell. I don't care if anyone notices on weekends or when i'm not at work. Strange isn't it? All my life i was focused on just fitting into the surroundings around me that now i don't care if people notice the real me coming out.